Roadtrip Theivery of Canadian Kisses

Took a long road trip to Canada - it was a West to East and back to West tour.  Not long after breaching the boarder to Eastern Canada I ran out of gas.  I had my 2 sisters with me and we decided to walk to try to find a gas station..  We got lost in some neighborhood - I remember most of the houses were built on hills and their driveways were steep... thought to myself that must be to prevent the snow from sticking.  We circled back to this convenience store where I had left the out of gas car.  It was no longer there.  The police came and it was discovered that someone had a ring of car thefts posing as tow truck drivers.. and it was assumed that my car was already being pieced out.  I was devastated.. here I was with my 2 sisters - far far away from home and in another country... what do you do?

Somehow ended up at Mr 11's place he took us in until we could figure out a way home.  I was nervous around him.. what a first meeting.  Before he went to bed he kissed me and while I enjoyed it.. it felt very awkward given the circumstances. 

Entrail Tug-O-War

Tarantula was dragging the carcass of a rather large animal by it's entrails towards it's den.... I was in awe how it could so easily drag something thousands of times bigger than itself.   Tug-o-war with a golden lab puppy that had been sitting in the passenger seat of a BMW.. the puppy won and later I caught up to it running trying to catch on film this event... The puppy was now dragging the carcass with the entrails in it's mouth and 2 jalapeno peppers were stationed on top.

Toppled Zentai Hugs

I was in a drugstore with a friend and we were both wearing zentai... he had given me a hug and I was in this quasi-state of shock to how much I enjoyed the hug... how long since it had been.. to hugged like that... I voiced my thoughts and wrapped my arms around the zentai man and held him tight for a long time.... I think he thought I was weird.. but I didn't care.. I was completely consumed by the feeling of this hugging sensation.

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Kevin Durant relocated and there was something that happened in the city that caused a high rise to start to topple over - people were screaming and we were scrambling to save his kids.

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Got corrected when I was talking about the geographical closeness of LA an Oakland.

Elevators and Naked Nipple Eyes

We lived on the 4th floor of some apartment complex that was doing some massive add-on with advanced features.  I remember being in the elevator and accidentally pushing the button for 2nd floor... realized my mistake and pushed the button for 4th floor and then pushed the 2nd floor button again to deactivate it.  I was surprised that it actually dimmed the light and now wouldn't make that pit stop on the 2nd floor cause of my mistake.  The elevator didn't just go up and down.. it moved across hallways and only went up when it encountered stairs.

There was a lot of sexual tension in the dream and I remember nude shadows.. and turning in a mirror to look at my exposed breasts.. and then imagined my eyes were additional nipples instead of eyes... though I could still see.  I laughed and got into the shower.

Startled Speed Bump

In that place between wake and sleep I dreamt that I tripped over a speed bump and it startled me awake.

911 International Steeps

I ran into Michael on a way back home from somewhere foreign - although it didn't feel like Canada - it was supposed to have been cause this is where he was originally from... it was a bittersweet trip for him... he was returning to his girlfriend/fiance that took him to live somewhere else.  We chatted about that - and something about a Mad Magazine subscription having had paid for something and he felt that meant he would be locked into a subscription.  My mom had previously been with me on this trip but we had somehow gotten separated.

We were on a huge shuttle bus and at one point I kept having thoughts that we were going to slide off the mountain side... especially when we had to turn on a very narrow road that had steep fall offs on either side.

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A woman had to call into 911 to report trouble with her sickly son... the husband was the one that took the call - though it didn't seem like an emergency center she called in to.. the husband was set up in like a Radio Jockey  - she kept trying to explain the situation - neither of them realizing who the other was but he was having trouble hearing her with his equipment set up... he swung the mic out and back and at one point it dawned on him.. he was hearing about his own son.

Moved Decisions Lost

Mr 11 was helping me decide something.
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Mom moved to a new place - it was on a really green/grassy hillside next to water.
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Personal belongings to multiple people I work with were being kept in a huge body bag sized knapsack in the office while they attended an offsite meeting.  It was at some tire shop in downtown Modesto... I half drove half walked to try to make it there but I got lost.

Apocalyptic Appetizers

Apocalyptic zombie dream - we had made it to my parents house - which was where they live now.. but the house was way different... old fashioned with rooms like a study full of books down in the lower level of the house.  We had to stab or bash those things int he head.. it was disturbing to have to do that even in a survival mode.  At one point we obtained Pat's old Tahoe and I was contemplating keeping it vs. my car - had more power, more room for more people.. but then I thought about gas and the potential scarcity of it.  We had pulled up on a mechanics shop and it felt shady and unsafe.  I can remember being next to a set of train tracks and the train cars were carrying something potentially toxic.

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Back in the childhood room again - though this time it was converted to look like an office room... the door had one of those lever arms that helps slow it's closure and toughen the opening... and the bottom of the door had one of those metal foot/splash guards (I don't know what they are called) - but in this dream it wasn't my childhood bedroom.. and it wasn't an office room... it was a restaurant.  Myself, Jennifer, and my 2 sisters Jennifer and Cathleen were all in here - laying on beds mind you... and Cath mentioned she was pregnant again - but she said it in a round-about way that made you conclude that's what she was saying... at first I was mad... her and her husband have 2 kids and he is the only one working - both financially irresponsible - but then I knew how much being a mom meant to Cath... and she's a damn good mom - so I let that go.  We had ordered appetizers and it was taking the waitress forever to return.. when she did... she didn't have any food.. only questions.. who had ordered the shrimp something or other because it was important to how to choose the paring with dinner... 2 of them had ordered a shrimp appetizer but the waitress was only concerned with a specific one.

Powder Fragments of HIt & Run Doggystyle Toilet Bathing

I had to bathe in a toilet and a sing in my parents master bathroom in my childhood home... though the bathroom was different from what that bathroom was/is in reality.  The porcelain was a dark mustard yellow - it was clean as I put my feet in the bowl and washed and rinsed using the sink.  The porcelain that made the sink was white.  So it was like the 2 different bathrooms mashed up together.

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There were 3 smartphones hooked together as a contraption that crushed prescription pills into a fine powder.

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My middle sister was walking my 2 dogs - though in the dream Reilly wasn't Reilly.. he was a pug..but had the same pattern of fur as Reilly has.  She got distracted and both dogs got hit by a car - the pug died instantly and Freshy was seriously injured.  I was crushed - she had gotten distracted by Leanne's new boyfriend or husband.  I went to find the body of the dead dog in the neighbor (old childhood neighbor) lady's overgrown backyard... it was unclear if Freshy was going to survive her injuries.

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I was overcome with hormones and was going to let Fred Savage fuck me doggie style on the guest bedroom.  Gross. I don't find him attractive whatsoever - but I had to fulfill a need and he was there... plan was thwarted when someone walked in.

Thoughtless Emporium

I drove to some Emporium store.. it was a strange place on the corner of a rather busy highway.. it almost looked like a costume store as the initial entry way was full of mannequins with fancy boas and dresses... but as you enter into the main floor it looked much like a library does with the card files that tell you where to find a book.. tons of those... but they were all fancy beads. One of the sales ladies came and spoke with me to tell me about the store and pointed out a rare mattress they had leaning up against the wall. She spoke to me in a way that it made me realize she thought I wasn't high class enough for this store.. and I really wasn't... I mean.. I'm not going to spend $100 on some rare bead that was made and hand painted.. just nothing of interest to me. But how could she know that just looking at me? - that was the frustrating part.

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I was house sitting.. but the odd thing was it was my own house.. the girl that Pat always had the hard time getting over showed up... it was startling how physically beautiful she was.. I wasn't sure her intention of being here.. Pat wasn't here.. wasn't going to be.. I got annoyed cause she was avoiding helping with any chores... using things at her whim and no thought to others... right before I woke up she said she was going to use the phone outside and instructed me to do something as if I was her maid.

Gosling Shower Add-Ons

Someone who looked like Ryan Gosling was living next door to me and for some reason we had a mobile bathroom unit that we shared that sat between our houses... but parked on the street.  I wanted to take a shower but I couldn't figure out how it worked.. it was a claw-foot type bathtub with multiple rigged up hoses and shower heads.  He came in to help me and explained that occasionally you had to shove the shower head to the drain to clear it out... it backed up really easily.

My mom and sister had emerged during this exchanged .. they were going out somewhere. - it was a simple pass through role... seems like Cath was wearing a dress.

I'm not attracted to Ryan Gosling in general.. but I have been attracted based on some characters he played (no! not The Notebook - haven't even seen it) - it's always more about who someone is really... so as I was getting to chat and know this RG doppelganger I started to be attracted to him...  the feeling felt mutual as we joked about doing additions to our houses so that we could connect them to have shared space and our own space.. we both had a need for our own space... but somewhat longed for the company of someone close.... being neighbors made that really convenient.

Fed-Up-Fuck

I was going to a movie with a few other people... Reilly had snuck into my car when I left the house.. and then again snuck out when I got out at the movie theater without my noticing until I was inside and he couldn't get in through the glass doors.  I went outside and picked him up.. he's the funnest dog to carry cause he's the perfect size...  I was just going to walk straight into the movie with him.. who cares! - when I opened the door to go into the actual movie seating.. there were other people with their pets.. big dogs... but the usher called me out and said I couldn't have my dog in there - and then here comes that anger that I can't/don't feel in waking life... I became completely belligerent  - but I was fed up and this was bullshit.. he was forcing me to leave and I gave in... but couldn't help myself and turned around on my way out and said something like Fuck you.. you... with some other fuck+made up word combinations (cause that is totally classy! <sarcasm>) - strange way to wake up disappointed with yourself but I'm sure it was an outlet from all of yesterdays frustrations... I had other parts to this dream or another dream but I can't remember them.

Barefoot Bellevue Hacksaw Rescues

I was back in Seattle and a light layer of snow covered the ground... there were people I haven't seen in years there... people I had worked with in Bellevue before I moved... I was trialing the idea of living there again... 

Apparently a lot of them lived in this 4 story dorm type apartment thing - I can only remember bits and pieces... Smulini was there, but I connected the most with Joe... he was the kindest person I had met while working up there and when he walked up to me I could see he had aged... gray hair was starting to show... he stood there with his hands deep in his jacket pockets like he always did... at some point... I had to rescue him out of one of the rooms in this building... he was chained up and I had to use a hacksaw to free him.  He was barefoot and I remember before we ran downstairs someone else said something about you are not allowed to be barefoot in here and if the house lady sees it (apparently the house lady is someone who oversees the building.. like a landlord) that we could be in trouble... so we watched for a window to sneak past.. he had big feet and was wearing a red t-shirt.  When the coast was clear he leaped down 5 stairs at a time.  There was a feeling as though this was reoccurring.. him being captured and having to rescue him without getting caught by the captor.

Rescuing Hunted Fragments

Pat and I rescued some girl in a hotel room who was trapped there by her stalker... we lured him out somehow and then locked him out of any potential way to get in.  (The room had adjoining room doors, ect).  That night Pat banged her while I slept on the floor.

The next day I had to leave to get some supplies at the store and I was driving behind what could have been an undercover police car... I wasn't wearing my seat-belt... and I saw a little red dot coming from the driver hitting me - we made eye contact through his rear view mirror... I backed off a little and slid my seat-belt on...  turns out he was not a cop... but a vampire and I had been tagged for his next hunt.

Salon Seams & Self Tattoos

I was in a backroom a huge nail salon getting my arm tattooed... Jonathan and Danny were in the salon waiting for me... Danny was getting his nails done.  Someone arrived and reclaimed the top panel of a latex hood I had... and I thought.. maybe Hans can help me fix this... the focus was strong on the seams of the hood.

When I emerged my arm was 80% covered in random tattoos and some of them I had did myself - and was worried that I messed up as I was falling asleep on the final one.  Mom was written in 2 places on my arm.. and it was all random and non-cohesive.. and although I liked it for that moment.. I was already starting to question my choices.

Thowing Plates in GPS Alley Ways

I was with a couple other people walking downtown somewhere... One might have been on a bike... We were trying to find the apt of a friend that was throwing a party... It was an obscure location and we had passed it the first time... The GPS told us we had to turn around...  We had to enter down an alley way between two tall brick buildings... Once arrived the place was packed but we learned the host was sick so didn't stay long.

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There was a handful of relatives staying at my house and there was a theme of them not respecting my things.. You have to understand that "things" don't mean much to me but when others don't handle your things with care it's frustrating... So I was frustrated..  At one point my washer and dryer were moved and one of them was damaged... I got so mad I threw a small plate at the wall and it shattered loudly on impact... This is so unlike me... But for some reason I felt bound/unable to speak... My sister threw a big plate which shattered on the same wall mine did to prove a point of it being completely unnecessary ... I felt alone and helpless.

Pet Rescue / Clumbsy in Seattle

Walking dogs... I had 3 in dream .... Mom was visiting...Normally not off leash I let them this time and 2 turned up missing.... There was a statement made that a neighbor took some dogs in and one had died... I went to this neighbors house and in my mind I thought... 1. I'll be completely devastated if one of my dogs is dead and 2. I will kill these motherfuckers if my dog died in their unnecessary possession.  There were a lot of people that lived in this house.. And they had a lot of animals.... A different neighbor had stopped me outside to tell me one of the older men had mental health issues and lured animals in to keep... I turned the corner inside the house and saw my 2 dogs and called them to follow me out of the house and home.

Later I remember turning the corner of the block during a walk or a mail run and seeing that old man that took my dogs laying half in/half out of the doorway of that house... He was laying in wait for the next pet...

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I was flying to Seattle... It was on one of those planes that had 2 levels... The top had sleeper beds and O2 masks... One lady was trying to talk her husband through purchasing a seat in the upper deck while we were boarded and ready to leave... She was the privileged type... Normal rules don't apply to her... Husband got the ticket but arrived too late... We were taxiing out to the runway while he ran up to the deck wearing one of those beige satin old woman body suits with saggy boobs...  This plane like one in another dream could drive on the freeway ... Somehow I was able to see the captains deck and it resembled the dash in my car and I saw 2 hours had passed it was 9:30p so I knew I'd be there soon... I had and argument with myself mentally about posting my arrival on social media and then wondered why people say: "<city> I am in you".... When my focus moved away from the internal thoughts we were now driving on the freeway in this plane.... I forgot how cold Seattle can be and realized I didn't pack proper.... Andrew was escorting me around town to my destination apartment... As we walked I would run a little and lift my legs and float on the air cushion created by the bag under one arm and a pillow under the other... He said he was going to Waikiki to see a girl... And it was serious so he might move there... Suddenly the sidewalks felt steep...it was harder to walk... Upon arriving to where I was staying I clumsily fell down a cement cluster of stairs after having had dropped my pillow down them.

Ambiance of 11 Secret Accidents

I was driving my little sister home from somewhere... there had been a car accident pulled over on the side of the fast lane... the car in front of us was driving there and pulled over just in front of the accident.. a little ways ahead there was a couch that had fallen out of a truck bed...  that had to have been the culprit.

Stopped at some store in the mall... we were walking now - I had picked up 2 magazines that had to do with music gear... and now I was meeting up with my childhood friend Jennifer.  We pit stop somewhere on our walk home and Mr 11 pulled up in his truck- in this dream he played the role of my dad  - there was an odd ambiance when we interacted - as if this had to be our secret, he wasn't really my dad, but people couldn't know that we had been something else....He asked what we were doing there... I gripped the magazines tighter and said something about just being on our way.

Blood Stained Spongebob

I had a dream I killed my grandmother - I didn't actually dream of the act - it was an after the fact entry.. my Spongebob throw blanket had a big blood stain right in the middle... I hid it in a desk crevice in hopes no one would find it... My middle sister Cath figured it was me and was REALLY angry at me and I kept acting normal while people were outside searching for bodies.

That'll teach me to watch Dexter marathons.

I had another much less morbid dream but I'm not able to recall it at this time... it has slipped my memory.

Choppy Sleep/Choppy Recall

Somehow, someone was taking pictures remotely from my phone - and then sending them to me  - there were random snapshots from around my childhood house... like they were learning every room.  I did not feel safe.

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My sisters husband was still alive and he was back in his football gear/shape vs. his frail cancer shape... we were hiking in the mountains on the border of AZ and NV and as we went up one ridge I saw 2 sets of feet being dragged into a cavern... I crouched down to look and it was a huge wolf pulling 2 unfortunate hikers into her den.

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I was with a small group of survivors in a facility and we had decided to leave... and I thought to myself it was a mistake to leave... but I reluctantly went with them...  I remember being on a huge grassy hill just up the way from where we had been staying and thinking to myself... it would be so much easier if I could fly like I am able to do in my dreams... and I recalled my flying dreams in this dream.  Eventually we ended up back where we started and even more locked down than before.

11 Resurfaced Voids

I dreamt about Mr 11 resurfacing... strange to me how strong his presence was in my dream... I can't recall having dreamt about him (not that I didn't want to) while we were heavily engaged.  The void his absence has left has just been much more apparent this week for some reason.

Getting home from work... I pulled into the driveway of my childhood home and there was a big awkward sign sitting on top of the other car parked in the driveway... said something along the lines of wanting to talk and that the wife knew now.  I was massively hesitant... I walked across the street to grab a pizza for the girls for dinner... he was sitting on a bench with his wife and a child between columns ... it reminded me of the library in Modesto... he didn't see me.. and I was glad.. I didn't want him to... I wasn't ready for this confrontation.

I left and went back home... there was a ring on the doorbell while I was in the bath... I pulled myself together and it was someone who had been annoying me and wasn't getting the hint I wasn't interested... clueless even though I had been direct and then when that didn't work chose the ignore path.. I walked him to his car and sent him on his way.

My old boss showed up and all of a sudden I was meeting him in an atrium he was standing next to some chairs that sat against a huge window... and he was showing me the ENORMOUS hawks that were flying up to the window... they looked like something out of a Jim Henson movie with how exaggerated their faces were - I was reaching into my pocket to retrieve my phone to take a picture.  I was being recruited - but can't remember what I decided or how that part of the dream even concluded... all I could think about was Mr 11.

Bondage Man

Totured man who could change into a fully enclosed bondaged type character on a whim - though it wasn't for pleasure... he was truly tortured this was a punishment and he had to hide it from those he loved.  A waitress at a restaurant wasn't who she seemed and he could see through her veil to see what she really was.

I was back at home at my childhood home... I went to my mom who was laying in her bed and asked.. "where's dad?" - I can't recall the answer but it had to do with him being at work... then I asked about one of our dogs... but phrased it as.. I haven't seen him in a while... she stopped me and said I didn't want to know.

He had escaped and this lady that was mentioned earlier ... the waitress who wasn't who she seemed.. had picked him up on her way home from a late night shift as some factory... he had become vicious and bit her... another man trying to rescue my dog was then captured and punished... lethal injections... a series of 4 or 5 injections and death would come after the last one..   He was released after the last injection and he stumbled into this empty abandoned room where he obtained a shard of glass and started to cut into his leg in an attempt to drain out the last injectable to prevent his death.

The tortured man mentioned in the beginning was in an adjoining room.. aware of what was happening... this man who was desperately trying to prevent his death.. was now turning into what the tortured man was... The original called out to him and said something along the lines of... "do you know what is happening to you?" - The vision flashed to being behind this new guy transforming... he had a bondage mask on covering his face now.  The two were going to be a team.

Later they were in a restaurant eating and discussing things... more of the waitresses had turned like the factory worker lady who took and lead to the demise of my dog... she was infecting others and only this tortured man could see them.

Biscuits and Gravy Legs

They had chopped off his legs and he was dragging himself behind a building expecting to have his life put to an end.  But the lady that worked inside of the restaurant saw him and grabbed her gun to fend off the the perpetrators.

I was appalled by this and during a jog with people I worked with I made some sly comment about "at least you have your legs" suspect that those I said this to were responsible for what I had seen happen although I wasn't there.

After the jog these coaches were hand picking pairs to square off - it was thought to be a ping pong competition - but once up at the table you were playing against someone that was either making biscuits or gravy... the partner I had to work with tried to swap and make me responsible for making the biscuits so they could make the gravy.  So weird.

All I could think about was them complaining that a number wasn't working anymore.  

Vintage Halloween and Thrifty Tickets

I had purchased tickets for the whole family to attend some event... the total came out to over $600.  We had to go to a thrift store to retrieve them.  I remember thinking.. isn't it going to be awkward for Mom to bring Dad to this place where Jeff works?  (Jeff is deceased in waking life) - I remember pulling up and not wanting to go in cause I didn't want to be witness to the observance of discomfort. 

I could see Jeff peering out the window of this shop as we all decided who was going in.  Me and Jen stayed behind.

When they returned with the tickets.. I saw I was charged over $800... 200 more than what I settled online... I made mention that I would call to have it corrected.

Jen and I went to a different thrift store where there were a lot of interesting and expensive items... expensive because they were hand crafted and well crafted items.   Someone made this picture album of their cat but the binding was high quality black and red leather...and it was made like a trunk style box with a handle on top... each back flipped down and was part of the body of this box...  they were asking $99

Flash back to what was supposed to be my parents house... Mom and Dad were putting on some random video Jen and I had made (where was Cath?) 

It was Halloween - I remember driving through intricate paths that had Halloween stations for the kids that were walking around trick or treating... and thinking.. it's not very safe for kids to be walking in some of these high traffic areas.. and the booths are rather distracting to drives... someone did not think this through.

Embedded Fragments

While back at my parents house... we were driving on a country road which had 3 huge tractor tires embedded in the asphalt to serve as speed bumps.  I didn't see them nor did I anticipate them so we were going rather fast.  

It flashed to playing with a toy car on a wooden fence... play driving it along the top edge and then having it fall into a pond.  It was supposed to have resembled what happened in the big car with all of us in it.   I heard Dad talking about it the tires in the road as the car plunged into the small body of water. 

I reached in to retrieve it but was distracted by a frog and a duck.

Latex Fragements

While thrift shopping with Jen.. she had come across a vintage latex outfit worn by someone famous for a steal of a price.
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I had latex pussy lips that could stretch out 2-3 feet like a slightly tapered cylinder. Extremely awkward.

Fragmented Comfort & The T-Shirt Assault

I got a t-shirt for turning in an assault weapon.. it was confiscated from a car that was at a crime scene... I thought this agency had taken it, but they had forgotten it... so really all I was was returning it.  The two guys that ran it slept in the back room... it was hard to tell if they were together or not.

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Sleeping outside with a love interest that was unclear if he was interested in me... he didn't seem interested in much.   We went to a concert of some sort after traveling by foot for some time. I remember him sitting in a white fold out chair wearing a white t-shirt that had some black design or logo on it.. his arms were crossed.. it felt as though he was really troubled and when he was in need of comfort he always came to me.

Work Dream-Denied.

Work Dream... not even going to bother recalling it because I was supposed to have been off yesterday through Friday but so far... day 2 in and I'm working.. blarg! Sucks to be responsible sometimes.

First Person Life to Movie

It was like living a life and then having a movie made based on that life.

I had forced myself to watch the first part of the movie telling myself I wouldn't watch the 2nd half.  But of course I did.  I remember walking through a department store makeup section where there were booths where the makeup girls could sit you down and give you make up consultations.  I was crying and looking for someone I knew for comfort.

In the last part of the movie, which again, was made to depict something that happened to me in my life..  there were 3 of us I think (fuzzy) returning from a retreat... a friend of mine (who is no friend I know in my waking life) was with a guy I was friends with but secretly wanted to be more than friends with - they were riding on a motorcycle together and I was on another.. can't recall if I was solo or with someone.. but I feel like it there was only 3 of us.. you couldn't see me in the movie.. it was almost as if I was there but not actually there.. like a story told through my eyes.

I was happy for them, but sad for myself.  and then, the climax... they wrecked and I wasn't there to help or save them... the girl died on impact.. and my friend, the one who reminds me of Ian.. he laid in this field that in my mind was a patch of area to the right within the first few feet of the old dirt road in Oroville.  He had been riding with his cock out and he felt for it.. luckily it had obtained no damage in the dismount..   He was bloody.. and you can tell that his end would come soon... he jerked off in his final moments.

So I'm walking through this maze of makeup booths crying, about this movie, about this thing that really happened to me (not really in waking life... but in this dream life).  Telling the person that I was there to see that I shouldn't have watched it, but I couldn't help myself.

The scene cuts to going to this Ian-like friend's apartment - they were going to burn it down as the finale to the movie... focused on a small corner desk.. the corner was dark, and the cherry wooden desk was illuminated by a small desk lamp... on top of it was a small stop watch... you heard clicking coming from a drawer.. open it and find a grab bag of random items there including an unopened boxed toy from toy story.. one of those claw machine characters.  There was a stethoscope and another stop watch/timer that had been making the clicks..

That's all I can remember.

Late Recall: Uncomfortable Escapes

I had a dream a couple nights ago that I had typed up on the notes app in my phone.. but hadn't had the time to sit and re-write it here.. and now I can't find it.. grrrr..

The only parts from that dream I can recollect now are something about being uncomfortable when realizing someone you are interested in has a wife and you are sitting right next to her for something.

Then either part of that same dream or having had woke up and had another in 2nd sleep - we were escaping something or someone.. we ran out to this school bus that was converted into an RV style camper.. there were something like 4 of us.. I had opened a drawer and grabbed knives to give to everyone to defend themselves from the this rabid type person that we were trying to escape... who apparently might have been hiding in the back of the bus.

I was in charge of driving.. and it was most difficult to drive because the steering wheel was a deflated bicycle tire... I remember going around curves in the freeway and trying to pull this rubber wheel though a pulley type system to avoid colliding with the cement median.  And it didn't go very fast.. taking an uphill exit I really had to push the gas pedal to get it to go...

Manual Labor & the Mangled Mensa

The dream was very fluid.. but I can only remember fragments... it occurred in a second sleep which I am having the biggest struggle coming to full wake from.

I was back in my childhood home.. and Cath went out to check the mail... I was handed the bills to which I made some under the breath comment about others needing to do some work to help pay the bills so it doesn't all fall on me so that I can move out on my own.  I felt guilty making that comment cause family should always come first before me.

With school starting back up I was going to stand in and so the work that Patrick was doing for his summer break... some manual type labor in some farming community.  I was in a trailer getting dressed when the boss guy knocked on the door to see if I was ready.  I came out and he was talking to Patrick who was walking to school... I told him to have a good day and was taken on a tour of the place following that.  The farmer boss explained that these parts weren't considered the good parts of town.. I explained it mattered not to me for I treat everyone with the same respect.

Ended up in a smaller deli/diner where I was with 2 other older ladies... the one that was supposed to be the boss offered to pick up the tab for a cinnamon roll and a coke in a glass bottle... I don't like soda but felt it rude to decline her offer, especially given her scoffy response to my statement of not liking people who acted better than anyone else.

While waiting for the other ladies to finish I jumped on the back of a 4 tiered/4 person motorcycle that the farmer boss was manning... he was anxious and not up for waiting so he drove it around my current neighborhood which was quiet and had little traffic.  I remember thinking .. this is my first time on a motorcycle and it doesn't feel as scary... until he started doing tricks... because there was no one on tier 2 and 3 and I was on the end.. I was getting whipped around and had to lift my feet during U-Turns in fear that they were going to be crushed against the sidewalk edge...   at one point we were being pulled or somehow connected to an ambulance.. he lost control and dismounted leaving me to figure out what to do... 

At this point I just remember standing there and things felt slow motion as this ambulance teetered back and forth straight towards me... I was frozen to move.. and then it collided with another car causing it to flip.... but then it landed up right.

I ran to the car to help... it was an older couple.. in their 70's or 80's... the male passenger was unconscious.. but his female partner was wide awake though very disoriented.  I touched the male passenger to see if he was alive... he came to and leaped from the car completely unaware of what happened and apparently without any substantial injury.  I ran over to the opposite side of the car to tend to the fragile lady.  She was going on something about wanting one her booties or her mitten to be put back on... I didn't want to move her and said I'd be back with a stretcher which I had hoped to retrieve from this mangled ambulance... but it was too mangled... I could hear sirens in the distance.  The ambulance was too mangled and I returned to her side to comfort her... I ended up scooping her up in my arms and retrieving her from the car... she couldn't have been more than 80 lbs this fragile bony lady... it was then the paramedics had arrived and were able to take and care for her properly.. one of the lady EMT's mentioned a rubber band the lady had been playing with on her fingers... she explained it was a way to comfort children of the wild and said it was associated with Mensa.

Sinking in Fragmented Latex Ice Holes

I fell through an iced over body of water that had very odd large pieces of ice that formed structures on top of the water.   It was slow motion as I fell knowing I would break through the ice and sink into the freezing water.  What I didn't expect was to continue sinking.. the impact didn't hurt considering the ice was thick... the water didn't even feel cold... a frozen with fear feeling transitioned into a calm serenity as I sank backwards underwater looking up towards the surface.

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Found several holes in my latex suit including one that was in the same place as my friend pointed out on his.

Deadbeat Pull Up Fragment

I was with my mom and sister and we were... somewhere... I was carrying Parker when I noticed The Deadbeats were holding a concert - I walked with him over to where they were playing and we listened in.  The singer recognized me as if we were good friends  (at this point this is not the actual deadbeats, but some other group but in dream I knew them as The Deadbeats).

I had a guest mic in my hand and it had all of these buttons and settings and I was having spaz moments where I would touch a button and it would do something like open a garage door and disturb the show, or it would turn on and make a squelching sound.. all embarrassing as I was not doing this on purpose.. it was nothing I could control.. it was impulsive like telling a kid not to push a button.. of course they are going to push it.

They had a contest... and it involved other members of the audience taking 3 persons sets of keys...  this guy from HS James, had taken mine... he was a year ahead of me and didn't remember me... until I told him who I was.. he gave me back my keys with a hug... he towered over me and had more body mass than his stick-like self from when he was in HS.   I won this contest, but felt as though it was because I had some how knew part of the band.

Flash to the backside of the hotel or housing that accompanied this fairground or whatever it was we were on... I was able to do pull ups on the wall with little effort.. 

Inside, one of the members came to sit down and found this bullet on the floor .. asked what it was for... I flashed to an earlier memory of someone choosing between that and something else to drink or eat... in the here and now, the person asking picked up the bullet and drank from it... "ahhh syrup!" he said.

That's all I can remember.... there was another dream before this that I told myself I should jot down knowing I'd forget once I fell back asleep... and of course.. that's what happened. 

Unclear Fuzzy Frozen Future

There was shopping store racks of clothing out in a desolate field.. there was also an abandoned car that the group I was with was hoping would run so we can move to another part and try to find other life.  Seems like we had found the keys but the owner showed up.  fuzzy.

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I was walking through a hospital in Seattle... I was trying to find the most convenient exit so that I could get over to our First Hill apartment.  Carolyn, the landlord, came to collect the rent on the abandoned apartment... I was paying the rent there even though Ian hadn't lived there in years... I walked inside and it was freezing... the piped heating wasn't able to keep up with the intense cold.

Ian showed, and I wasn't surprised... again completely unaware of reality it just felt as though I hadn't seen him for a long time.  There was nothing much left in this apartment... we left and went to a house that was in the Queen Anne district... it was a small house and I was paying rent here too... I told him he was more than welcome to stay... this house was comfortable and warm in contrast to our old apartment... he was laying on the couch and called me over... I laid down next to him and he just hugged me.. at minimum he was going to stay the night... but the future felt unclear.

Work & The Big Bad C

I returned early from a personal vacation to ensure I'd not be late for work.  Upon returning to work they were still trying to figure out who the new member would be to take the spot of the one leaving.  My youngest sister worked with me too, on the same team... they had considered her to step into the role because she is NEVER late and always on-time and never misses work.  But today, her flight back was delayed and thus for the first time ever she was late... so they used that to discount her.  This enraged me.

Then they mentioned bringing a project manager with whom I've had the most displeasure of working with...and I voiced it.  Of course they were turned off by my statement of I'd have to leave if she was going to be the one appointed.. but anyone in their right mind would have had the same reaction based on reputation and the experience I've had.  Another co-worker came in and sat in on the meeting and said something along the lines of .. she has cancer... you would know this if you took and analyzed her blood.  I responded that I don't know how to take blood (blood-work has ZERO to do with my job in waking life) and I instantly felt bad... really bad. 

I left that meeting room and went to find this lady.. when I found her I said nothing and just hugged her and started crying.


Afterthought: it's nice to know that somewhere in me,  I still have the ability to genuinely care about people even if I don't necessarily like them... I had started to worry that I was too far gone.

2 Pint Nerves

I was in a car with 2 guys that were telling me where to drive... it felt suspect and so when I found an opportunity to make a U-turn I did and said whatever I had ordered at some place must be ready by now... they did not contest.

We stopped at a gas station mart where I purchased 2 pint glasses of beer.. they were glass pint glasses with some plastic lid... which I tore one off and chugged half of the glass to ease my nerves and then considering refilling to top it off while these two guys tried to quietly figure out if they had enough money to even purchase 1.

I wanted to lose them.  I didn't feel safe.

Captive Defiance, Defense and Escape

I was being held captive... and felt desperate to escape.  I remember being in a hotel room and seeing 2 people I knew and knocking on the window for them to come save me... but 1 of the 2 was one of the bad guys in disguise and they came into the room and roughed me up for the attempted escape.

Eventually I did somehow escape but felt as though I was on the run constantly.  3 beers at the top of a cooler in a convenience store was just 3 bad guys that could morph into objects in an attempt to find a moment to capture me again.  I saw the objects transform into their faces and I scurried by.... I felt as though I would never escape

woke up all feverish and sweaty.. been a long time since I've had such a dream.
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I was feeling quite defiant at a work function... we were sitting under a tent while new management was going to make a speech.. though they were afraid about what I might say so the kept a close eye on me.  I felt very defensive when someone had said I shouldn't have included financials in my project plan... I was certain I hadn't included any specifics only a general statement to support my business plan which is completely acceptable... I was flipping through my notes in a small spiral bound notebook.  Jonathan was there.. he had brought me a shaved ice snow cone to cool me down... when I found my note I wanted to shove it in their faces.  I can't remember a time ever feeling so defensive.  Too many changes going on now and it's hard for me to process and I'm partially afraid of what this change can bring.

Ian & The Russian Renegades

Dreamt that Ian and I got back together.. Being here and having spoke of him over dinner last night must have triggered it.  Again in dream, I was not aware of the suicide... Still hard to swallow waking up to reality... In dream we were shopping in some home improvement type store.  I got annoyed with him over something.

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The story flip-flopped between 1st person and 3rd person... a small Russian family .. Young mom, dad and infant... In 1st person I was the mom... In 3rd person it was someone else that was supposed to be playing me as if it were film based on true events.  They turned into renegades just barely escaping Canadian authorities for some crime that resulted in a high speed chase.  How this family outrun the troopers in their little maroon station wagon is a mystery.  But then the mom wanted to go back into Canada cause the grocery found there wasn't found elsewhere.  The dad protested but they still went ... This part of the dream felt tense... Had to be on high guard and constant watch.  I remember a scene in the grocery store..their purpose for crossing the border again.. And a scene in the hotel room... The door to the room open with clear view of the street... The corner of their maroon car visible as the watched for a patrol car to spot the vehicle likely on some watch list.  The mom was singing to the baby and the dad told her she was singing too loud.

Late Caged Chat Taps and Rain

It was raining and I was at a stoplight on a slight incline... I inched forward to see if I could go... the car behind me did as well... but my car had that slight back roll of a manual transmission so when it came to rest it tapped the person behind me.   The light turned green and I started to go... I kept looking in the rear view mirror for a reaction from the person behind me.. normally I would stop... but it was just a small tap - I kept going but later called my insurance to inform them just in case something came about.  I was in a white room and someone was in a silver cage that was only 3 feet by 3 feet by 3 feet.

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I was late for class and on the way in Marco and I chatted about the annoying apps we keep or have gotten rid of on our phone.  He went one way and I went another... my seat was in front of the class with 1 other person... the instructor didn't stop to address my tardiness.. instead just kept going while my seating neighbor gave me a look of "where have you been????"

Africa Advances

I dreamt I took a work assignment in Africa... it felt far away and removed from everyone... and it was in a desolate area... I didn't really have neighbors.

I was living in a long 1 story house that had a security system that included an outside video surveillance system which I could look around the whole outside of the house using a joystick.  Someone had abandoned a car on the east side of the property... There was an intercom and although I don't remember voicing it... it was my voice that said.. "please move your car"

Hans came to visit twice... first by himself and 2nd he brought a new friend that was doing covers of some 70's or early 80's artist I liked... I remember a show put on in my living room where this guy playing guitar and a keyboard while singing and I sang along.  I tried to kiss Hans twice but I could tell he was uncomfortable by my advances and now I felt embarrassed.

White chocolate chips and marshmallows on a quick spin in the microwave.. abandoned after the first taste.

There was tall grass in the backyard and a 2 story cat tower sat in the middle as I was trying to befriend a cat to stay with me.

Road Trip Leftovers

We (I say we because I wasn't alone, but I can't recall the other parties that I was with) had taken a road-trip to NY for something... it's was almost like we were there to clean out the old Oroville house cause someone had passed... but that's on the opposite side of the country...  the roads in NY were confusing... lanes were labelled with letters... A and B went 1 direction and C the opposite and the lanes were all together and very narrow... I was driving in the C lane when I saw traffic coming in A and B and it made me question myself if I had figured it out correctly  and I swerved into the shoulder that was covered in dark green ivy leaves.

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A different road-trip.. this time to a cabin up in a remote part of somewhere... Ian flip flopped with my friend Pat... in parts of the dream it was Ian and others it was Pat (side note: why don't we realize it's not real when this happens in dream and we are aware of the flip flop?)  Seems like there was a 3rd party there... but I can't for the life of me remember who it was... but all of the pets were with us.

On the drive home I was sitting in the back of a jeep facing the rear... as we drove down the highway the sky was flickering like some jacked up LSD trip.  I remember taking a turn on a road and I stopped Pat at this point and told him I thought we were going the wrong way.... but it only turned out to be that I was turned around by the flickering sky.  When we got home me and Ian now came inside... no place I ever lived before but I apparently lived with Ian here... I was in the bathroom when realized we didn't bring George home... instant devastation and I started crying... Ian came to comfort me... he hugged me as we stood in front of the bathroom counter and mirror and I saw in the mirror he was smiling as he hugged me... I was confused by this... he pulled away and exclaimed "I don't give a fuck" then I rushed to gather things so I could drive back to get George w/o Ian's help.

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Other random frags from the up and downs

Burning a candle in a glass globe that sat on a pedestal in the living room.. I had to keep moving it and running in from the kitchen to snatch up my nephew from trying to reach it...
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My Mom, Linda, and some other girls that were either friends of mine or my sisters were all wearing the same dress for some event... then there was video of them trying on different dresses and dancing or twirling across the scene... they were just simply enjoying themselves and having a good time.

Morbid Missle Movie Fragments

while waiting in line at a grocery checkout just outside of a NASA bunker... I passed out and woke up 15 feet from where I was standing... they had stalled the line and I heard one of the guards talking about missile threats from Russia and at first they dismissed but checked their radar again and then scrambled to turn on a warning system.

I looked into the sky and saw normal crafts flying (you know.. airplanes and helicopters).. waiting to see a missile and wondered if it would hurt if it hit... if for that split second I would feel the pain of my arms, legs, and head being ripped from my body via an explosion.  how fucking morbid.

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movies playing in airplane seats

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reuniting family members that had been abducted

Refried Lies with a Hint of Blue

We were gathered across the street on the north-side, from Loves... I was a member of some escort group now (uhh what?)... I had blue hair and him and his wife drove through and stopped in at the gas station.  Some members of this group started to harass them by throwing big plastic kids toys at the road in front of where they were driving... Silly playskool fake kitchen counters and ride-on trikes ... I tried to hide... I didn't want him to see me, nor did I want him to think I had anything to do with what was going on cause I didn't... I hadn't even noticed him until the group started in on this activity.

Flash to night time.. in some brothel type hotel... I'm in a dining type room with a handful of other people... and I hear a commotion outside and he starts yelling at someone just outside the door that they need to pick up their toys.. he walked in and sat down right in front of me where a plate of refried beans and chicken wings was waiting for him.  Talk about awkward... I didn't even know what to say... I was frozen.  I just watched him eat... and he talked, though I can't remember what was said... I wanted him to want to be there... but he was a hard read...  At one point he got up suddenly and rushed out the door... his room happened to be the one next to this one and I heard him open the door and make an excuse to his wife that he'd be back... he left their door open and returned to his half finished plate.... I'm disgusted to admit his return gave me some hope like a little girl who still believes in Santa Claus.

I didn't speak the whole time I just watched with what felt like big doe eyes full of want and hurt and mortification... wanting answers...wanting truth... wanting all that was a lie to have not been a lie.

fuck.me.

Standing up & Stealing from the Dead

Just some fragments....

Living in some other neighborhood I did something for the neighbor and then stole some red velvet cupcake ice cream from their garage refrigerator (WTF I don't steal!)... later I think they figured it out.

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Sister had a new boyfriend and they were visiting at my house.. which wasn't the house I live in right now.. it was some other house... and he got a phone call from a new job prospect and then set up some appointment to have the wiring in my house looked at... I felt very skeptical and uneasy about this.. general thought was it had to do with surveillance and there was something off about it all... so, as much as I hated giving the "this is my house you have to get my permission to go and do shit to it" speech .. I gave it.. I think he could sense my lack of confidence and figured he could bowl me over.

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The sun was setting and Jen's husband James was alive and here with her... there were vines hanging from the balcony above the sliding door and we both rushed out to take pictures of the sunset through the vines.. I remember taking a video.. from the based of the vines downwards to the tips of the hanging vines and I was in love with how the focus shifted as the camera slowly fell through.

Fragments in Canada

Went to Canada to work with underprivileged kids.. I remember driving them from the country into the city for some event... 
 
I had a piercing in my thigh that got ripped out.

Frozen Captives and Battles of Reason

was out with 2 people from work, one of them was my boss - we were sitting outside of a shopping mall and it was snowing... I was sitting in the snow carving messages in it with my fingernail and taking a picture with my phone.... there was a red bra frozen on the sidewalk just outside the entrance to the mall.  My boss said she was going to go in and buy pillows and said she needed help cause she was going to buy so many.

I was standing in a long line behind others.. and noticed that the person I was standing their for was now gone...so after a short convo with a couple of ladies that were standing behind me I left.

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I was at lunch with Jonathan at AJ's... and I felt I had to tell him how I felt uncomfortable with knowing he had locked away family members that were not in support of his marriage to his partner Danny and that morally I felt I had to tell someone that could rescue or free them...it flashed to me being in a house that was supposed to be his but it was different than what I know... I lifted a rug that covered a hatch door for access into a cellar...  he laughed and asked if I thought they were just kept in some dungeon and thrown only scraps of food and minimal water? - to which I replied.. "well.. yeah!"... he tried to tell me that he had them kept in a fancy apartment and they were well taken care of... then he lifted the hatch and showed me inside the cellar..which didn't contain any proof of anyone living down there or being captive.  I was still skeptical.

While him and Danny were away there was a knock on the front door... this time it was actually their house how I know it... it was a mom and a daughter selling girl scout cookies... but they said they couldn't sell to people who had certain types of flooring in their house... and one of the ones was Jonathan's... so I tried to ask why cause it was just ridiculous.. and as they started to explain.. I saw Jonathan and Danny drive up... and was happy they could join in on this battle of reasoning.

Binge Divides

I had a dream that I was living in a house with Ian in somewhere that I can only somehow manage to relate it being in Dublin.

We divided the house between us... an obvious divide. 

Concerns about the neighbors

Drug binge

Shortcake Meetings and Rental Racing

For $400 for the day you were suppose to be able to take out any car on a racetrack and race it for as long as you wished.  I thought it was for sure too good to be true... so when I got to the place of business I asked about it... they informed me that no.. that was not the case.. it was just merely to rent the car like a normal rental to see if you wanted to purchase the car.  I scoffed and said $400?? I could go to any rental agency and spend a fraction for the day and that that's how I came to buy my car when I did ... after renting and driving it for a couple days when my other car was in the shop.  One of the two guys there said they are reasonable cause now other agencies charge $1400... I interrupted him and exclaimed "Since when?!?!"... he though for a moment and said since November... Hmm.. ok... so I cancelled my reservation cause I wasn't interested in buying a new car... all I really wanted to do was drive one with some power around on a race track for the day.

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Former VP turned Director treated us to a full sized strawberry shortcake with heavy cream for some executive meeting that was being held in, of all places, my childhood bedroom in the house I grew up in.  We were doing some roundtable discussions and I had something I had wanted to address but one of the 2 liquors used in making this cake (I think it was Grand Marnier) was kicking in and making my memory fuzzy... so I thanked him for the cake and then the visual turned cinematic... the camera came in through my bedroom window and paned around the room as I watched other coworkers just going to town eating at minimum half of the huge cake we were each provided even the strawberries were over-sized and quite heavy.

Synesthesia, Ian, and German Wine

I attended a German wine party on a pier that Ian had told me about.  I went alone and did not see him there (not surprising as it was not his scene) - in the dream I was semi aware he was dead, but there was some hope to have seen him alive here.  

The wine selection of the night was one that poured orange and yellow slushy swirled.. some journalist made eye contact but sat to converse with another girl.  When she left he got up and walked towards the window when he saw me sitting on the couch just behind the wall against the same window.  He talked about the wine but found an excuse to leave. The wine was one of the best I had ever tasted.. I went to get a refill but the time limit was up.  The 2 girls responsible for the event invited me in their room and pulled out the wine I was seeking.  When they opened the bottle I had a case of synesthesia as I saw colors flow from the bottle like smoke and across the room to some sequence of music...

Clipper Garbage

When I went to bring the garbage cans in Waste Management had swapped my cans out giving me new ones.  The new ones were thicker plastic and much taller than my original cans.

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Ron tried to tell me he made the handle on the fingernail clippers that Pat had and that Pat was deciding who between us was going to be his friend.

Paranoid Misidentification

frags only because I didn't write it down as soon as I woke up...


Hans was Anton - meaning when I encountered him in person he looked like Anton..but when I saw him as Anton I didn't think Anton... I knew it was Hans.  We had passed paths multiple times though we weren't in the same group.

It's like we were all out doing things for Halloween but I can't recall being dressed up.

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In a kitchen talking to someone about marijuana and he made me change what I meant by that word cause he was paranoid that someone was listening... I had remembered two trucks parked outside his place of business one red, one white and they did seem rather suspicious.

First Love Past Blast

I had a dream I went to visit Shane.  Gosh... I haven't seen Shane since I was like 17.  I remember back then having a dream after he basically fell off my planet that we had a picnic under an oak tree on a traditional red and white checkered blanket.  Sitting on a park bench table Scorpions - Still Loving You played.  For a short time I convinced myself he must be dead and this was his way of communicating with me.  First loves. Heh.

Orange County Escape

Fuck it's only a frag.

I was stuck in an Orange County Airport trying to escape something I couldn't escape... the walls were tin... the rooms were tin...so every which way you turned it all looked the same.  Like some fucked up wall of mirrors but the reflection was so warped you could only make out a general ghostly shape.

Awkward Kissing and IceCream Cone Rain

In some house I'd never been in that was supposed to be mine... him and his wife were staying the night... talk about awkward... as we both tried to completely avoid each other.

At the same time, KC was trying to make out with me, but was a really bad kisser.. all just sticking out his tongue... then he gave me a hickey.

Some lady fronted the money for all of the ice cream cones we had made to give away from for my birthday - I was trying to find some way to repay her for that debt wasn't hers...it was supposed to be mine.

it was raining.

Frantic Home Not-So-Sweet Home

I had gotten off the wrong exit to get to work.. it was as if I had been working back in Seattle... and for some reason, since I already got off the freeway I couldn't drive... I had to walk.... so it was something like 4  blocks uphill before I could cross over for the straight shot to work.

Once there, it was my current office now and I found out that he had relocated and was now working from my office - they moved him and his co-worker to sit behind me... he directly behind me.. her behind him.  Uggghhh.

To block out him and her talking back and forth I stuck my headphones in and started playing my music... but then realized for some reason it was playing really loud through speakers at my desk... I adjusted the volume down... put the headphones back in and then pulled them out to find the music was still too loud.. adjusted the volume again.

My desk was covered in and full of Costco sized cleaning supplies.. that I was trying to quickly organize and put away so I could get to my work and focus on what had to actually be done... I went to take some things to the recycle bin and found the music was loud again.. turned it down and tried to pull the batteries out or fiddle with the headphones only or headphones and speakers switch that was under the battery compartment.

Across from he who now sat behind me, was another co-worker from another site, and I looked at him with big eyes and tilted my head towards the cube... he knows of the situation and shrugged... I felt frantic... a Senator, his wife and son had arrived for a presentation  (a senator, wtf? - I don't fucking do politics!) - but they arrived at the 2nd building across the parking lot.  I went to go retrieve them and realized that Mötley Crüe - Home Sweet Home started playing through the speakers - there was nothing I could do - I had to leave to redirect these guest to the correct place.... but I started running when I realized after that song is over something else could come on and louder than what I left it when I left.   Part of me wanted him to use it as an excuse to be moved away from me.. but I was not wanting to annoy the whole office...

As I was running back my pant legs seemed to just get longer and longer making running really difficult...

San Diego Bang Rolls

We traveled to San Diego and arrived at a dinner party at some restaurant where each person at the long table, that stretched nearly the whole backside of the restaurant, had unique blown glass straws in their drink.  Apparently this place was also a salon... I said I wanted my bangs back and got to choose between two different styles... I went with the more layered bang look and they had to dig into the bread basket to find the dinner roll that resembled how they were going to cut my hair.

Scattered Seattle Sass

I had to take a work trip to Seattle for a 2 hour training.  When the training was over I couldn't remember if I had booked a hotel or not.  Friend that lives there called me and came to hang out - He said he would use the restroom for me cause my clothes were too complicated to get on/off. - But I ended up using myself anyways.  While I was in this restroom Will Sasso called me... he thought I was following him via some social media app cause I wanted to commission him for some type of manual labor work... I explained no, and that I just thought he was funny.  He didn't end the call instead he stayed on it and we had multiple moments of awkward silence.  I realized it was late... 2 am... and my friend had gone to his bed and was sleeping... I let myself out of his house and broke into a 4th floor hotel room to change my clothes... while I was changing the hotel maid came in to clean cause it was supposed to be an unoccupied room.  I saw her through the crack in the doorway to the bathroom realize the room was occupied and scurried to set stuff up.  I thought for sure that she was going to tell so I hurried up and struggled to get everything that was scattered about back in my suitcase so I could go and properly pay for a room for the night.

Claustrophobic Cruise

1st time on a cruise ship... I couldn't figure out how to open the door - there was a food port and I was worried that that was the actual entrance into my tiny room and there was no way I was going to fit.. I could barely get my arm through...

My Mom and Dad had a bigger and much more luxurious room and I went there to look at their door to see how it worked.. returned to mine and reached my arm through the food port and felt around up and over to the left for the latch to open the door... the room was only big enough to accommodate a twin bed...talk about claustrophobia.

Germany and Robots 1 & 2

Could easily travel to Germany... in the dream it was Germany, but in reality it would have been Austria.. to see my great grandmother.  Just had to travel over the overpass and through some time-warp bend... her house was small and sat in the middle of a preserve of sorts.. part of it was open and then upstairs had a room with 2 small beds.  I wasn't comfortable staying too long, I didn't feel part, so came back home leaving Mom and Sisters behind to visit.

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There was some movie, though I didn't realize we were making a movie, that forced us to get rid of all of the robots that had been created to help humans.. When we started filming part 2... it was to bring the robots back because they found that they actually did help us.  I was frustrated with people going back and forth over the same thing and not having all their data before making a decision.

I woke up with a cut or a burn on my index finger... I don't know where it came from.. it wasn't there when I went to bed.

Stuck

-frag-
Literally and figuratively stuck in the mud.

LA Jet-Lag Anxiety Avoidance

I was asked to travel to a work-site that I didn't want to be at... it's not even a site I'm responsible for... 1st I had to travel to another place to do some training... and then we boarded a jet that could take off straight up without having to do a standard runway takeoff... it also could drive on the freeway in the LA traffic w/o issue.   However when we got near to the destination... I hopped another flight and just came home.  We are not required to travel for these conversions anymore and why did I have to go to to the So Cal one? - 2nd level boss came to visit to see why I skipped out - explained just that.. they don't need to know any thing more than that... but I'm sure my face gave away the extreme discomfort of the potential of what I would have to face there.

fuck work dreams. and fuck still dreaming about THAT.  and fuck me for even getting myself into that situation.
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Truck bed full of potatoes.

Well Known, No Name Ciabatta

I was dating one of those actors that are well known, but no one knows their name... that guy in that thing.  He had a special evening planned but as we arrived to the hotel, the plan was thwarted by Rosie Perez - she needed him to watch her kid because of an emergency she said.  

I was making a sandwich on a 7 grain ciabatta with lettuce, tomato and provolone cheese when he realized he had been lied to and she was just looking for a night alone w/o kids.

Fragmented Spaz

They were harder to detect... the ones that would just spaz out and bite you.  Walking through the airport full of people you had to be on high guard.  We were all going to meet at a big panel van... but I ended up in a BMW with some shady people that I couldn't escape... I convinced them to return me to the airport where I attempted again to make it to the van.

A girl from HS was there waiting.... she was pregnant and trying to get back to her boyfriend.

We visited a recent retiree and he admitted that he had been her lover and that he was the father of her child.

Spending the night in a house I wanted to buy, but it was not for sale.  The night in the house that was for sale left much to be desired.

Standing on the sidewalk looking at the growth from the cracks.

It was warm out.

Sensory Squatting & Bruised Bathing

While squatting to pee... I recalled it was Netflix that I forgot in a list of something I provided to someone... and was captured and forced into sensory deprivation.  While trying to escape I was slammed up against the corner of a cement block wall... I snuck around the backside and my sliding glass door was open just enough for me to squeeze through.

Flash to a public bathing area.. it was grey and ashy color as if it were underground... it was here I sat battered, bloody and bruised as someone cleaned me up in front of a small audience...I looked down at my hand and noticed one of my fingertips smashed with the bone exposed.

Infected Underwater Wine Witch

Frag.

Botched back tattoo on someone I wouldn't expect that was horribly infected.  He was encountered on our way to Japan where we were going to live for a month to dispel an underwater dead witch.

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Someone cheated on the composition of their wine.

Rant Routing w/Eddie Vedder

Went to see Eddie Vedder perform at a small venue.. he was annoyed by a lot of things and we shared a rant session after the show.

At home working in my backyard with multiple phone wires trying to explain call routing to an executive that was visiting.... they thought there was a routing problem but things were routing as designed.

Ugh. Work Dream... I was having so much fun with Eddie Vedder and you had to go ruin it!

Corrupt Reality

Was with 2 other girls and we got pulled over for speeding - the cop let us go because one of the girls made out with him.   The rest of the force got wind that this happened and arrived to punish us... and I'm not talking about the good kind.

Vince McMahon was the lead of the rogue group of policemen that were going to come in and eradicate those that aided in the corruption of this cop.. who actually initiated the exchange during the pull over..but somehow we were getting all the blame... He was either going to kill us.. or whatever reality we knew of everything that existed was all about to change.  I remember trying to get my hands on a knife cause I was going to fight... I wasn't about to sit here and let this happen.

Orphaned Glass Eaters

I was 1 of 3 Russian homeless orphan siblings and we each had mullets... because of my hair and my weird nose I was often mistaken for a boy.  We were wearing dirty potato sacks for clothes and our hair was untidy and bordering on being dreadlock-like.  We slept on old wooden pallets discarded behind old abandoned factories in an industrial area.

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I broke the screen on my iPhone and was compulsively eating the glass.

8' Owls, Amputated Aligator Milk, Dr Pepper and White Socks

There was an 8-foot owl in the backyard at my Mom's place... she went outside to see it and it attacked her while I was fixing a bathtub faucet inside.

Ice Cream made with alligator milk.

A competition of leg-less people who would suspend themselves to collect or filter a fluid from above to a collection tank below.  The one I was witness to was a small Asian girl who had been amputated just below the waist... she was wearing a black corset and a gas mask - she was very confident that she had her skill down... she rigged herself up and swung into place ... but as the fluid flowed she was off target... her disappointment was apparent and to avoid embarrassment she began to act as though it was missed on purpose and she wanted to highlight the functionality of the gas mask..

Went to a grocery/drug store and ran into a girl from work I don't care for... she didn't see me at first... I had to get some Dr. Pepper for my sister and for some reason I wasn't wearing socks.. so grabbed some from the shelf and put them on... they were super white and too big for my feet... went to the checkout counter and it was 8 items or less... so I had to take something off the belt... I remember there were 2 baseball caps .. 1 Dr Pepper one and 1 Sprite one that I got for my sister (strange she doesn't wear baseball hats)- and the checkout guy said something was missing.. and I alerted him to my socks.

Outer-space Pizza Box Cave Escape

He messaged me through a pizza box because he felt he should explain... I was on a work trip that involved a stop in a hot springs..he had been following me the entire trip.... Nephew was with me and we slipped on the embankment and he went under... I screamed for help but was able to retrieve him without any issue and he was content.

The 2nd part of the trip was in outer-space... We had crossed paths again and he finished explaining that he was just "bored" and writing messages in a single slice of pizza that stood out from the whole for "fun"... I asked how many others there were and that's when the messages stopped.  Apparently he didn't want to tell me so I can only assume there were plenty.  The one I knew of was leading the trip... I think she was suspicious of the contact I was engaged in... I could feel it.. but she said nothing.  We were late returning to earth and she was on the phone trying to track down who prematurely broke the story about the findings of our expedition... it flashed now to someone explaining on TV how we have to enter the atmosphere at a specific angle and speed otherwise we completely incinerate.

Either within this same dream or another... I watched a movie that was loosely based on my pizza messages.  Robin Williams played an obsessed lover of a married man who was set on not leaving his family.  He broke the news to Robin via pizza message, that he and his family were going to up and move to Alaska and he wasn't invited (Robin was like the Nanny or something)  It flashed to the memory of the married man and how he had viewed the property in a previous visit... it was cave like with underground natural springs and colorful cave walls.  

Seems as though now that I am recalling this dream (I've been struggling to remember my dreams daily of late) that I dreamt of such a property before this dream (same night, different dream)... and in that dream someone else was fleeing to escape someone else... Hmm.. themes of escape.. fitting considering.