Wednesday, June 4, 2014

Sibling Suicide

I was visiting my parents in some place they lived that I am not familiar with and there was another sibling there that did not resemble any sibling I have in waking life. 

This new sibling and I were home alone... the parents were out.  I was sitting in another room, but it was weird because I was watching what was happening through what felt like an out of body experience.  This girl bent over the sink and shot herself in the head.  I was instantly traumatized - and in shock.  Frozen to do anything thinking I can't witness this, I can't go through this again.

After a time I knew I had to go and see first hand - when I turned on the kitchen light - it was gruesome - there was blood on the cabinets where her body slid into it's current position - and I noticed she was still somewhat conscious.  Frantically I called 911 from my cell phone - the reception was bad and the dispatcher and police officer commented about it so I said I'd call back from my parents home phone - but the battery on the handset was low and I had to call in from my cell again.  I was crying hysterically trying to explain what happened.

It was too late.. she didn't make it.  I was completely and utterly devastated and I felt guilty that I couldn't act sooner, had I, maybe she could have lived.  Having to tell my parents was the hardest.


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