I was on an tubing trip down a massive river - the floatation island I was in could hold multiple people- but there were only a few of us in it - while a crowd of people behind us pushed and a scattering of people walked in front - so during this scene it was almost as if we were floating on air and it was a dirt path that those behind and ahead were walking on. Marie was there, she had organized the event - she had showed me the total bill for lunch it was over $10K at some sandwich shop - her sister Betty had helped set up that order where people could go to get any sandwich they wanted. I had drank a beer or two and had thoughts of guilt for being on this raft that other people were pushing - it would be easier on them if I were walking with them vs. being assisted along. Bryan was one of the people ahead - he made a comment to the effect of why am I not like how I was when we first met. Funny thing is, we had never met, but in dream I recalled a time before we did meet and I had been drinking much more and was out of control. He liked drunk Liz better... vs. the quiet reserved Liz.
There were 2 other guys there that had met though being connected with me and they were happily together now - though they still got a lot of grief from others due to the same sex relationship.
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I had been talking to Mr 11 on the phone - and the question of my time being wasted emerged - he made some comment about he can do what he wants to do now and that I matter not... He started to tell me about a girl Jacki that he had plans to go visit so we would be out of contact for a bit... I was holding back emotions cause this was exactly the kind of thing I wanted to avoid, though knew was very possible from the beginning, yet I stuck around. My voice went silent on the phone - I couldn't admit I was jealous, that I was hurt - but he could tell, he knew me well and then tried to make plans with me to make up for it.
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