Red Voodoo Screenplay Rapids

Witnessed a child hit the wrong side of the rapids and get swept under... He never resurfaced... There was this Birdseye view of either side side by side... Everyone was supposed to avoid the right side and that was his final path. His parents were obviously devastated and soon after disappeared themselves... I had had a dream in this dream that helped me figure out what happened to them... It had something to do with bright red centipedes and voodoo... I'm not good at writing in the form of books and screenplays but this guy I only know of online was encouraging it and offering support... The ones responsible for the disappearance of the parents did not like that I had somehow known/figured out their secret so planned a similar fate for me.

Dreams Ruined by Work & Muscles

Only Fragments...

Work dream - like doing actual work in my sleep.. ugh! - I got assigned to do some call traces - I was in some house somewhere - no where I had ever been.

A guy dancing in a gas mask and a tutu... I was mildly annoyed by his muscle definition as it ruined the visual for me.

Cats, Lemon Slices and Snow

I'm trying to recall this one from 2 days ago... it was fuzzy when I woke up.. and still is fuzzy now.

I was in a forest where it had been snowing - there were nice wooden cabinets outside with glass windows in the doors so you could see what was housed inside.

I went to a tree that had a hollowed out entrance - and 2 cats emerged - a grey and a black one with stark green eyes.  At first I was afraid as I didn't expect anything to have been living in there in this cold. - I had went inside and came back out and was going to go back to this tree with wooden cabinets and someone told me to remove the lemon - there were thin layers of lemon slices lining the inside.

That's all I can remember.

Fatherless Baseball Boys

I was at a benefit baseball game held by the Dodgers for sons that were growing up without a father due to them having had passed away in their younger years.  My sister and nephew were with me - We went to sit in the stands I recall my ticket had me sitting in a different section.. but I wanted to sit with them so I stayed and would ask whomever's seat I was in if they would trade if they were to ever show.  The stands were on train tracks... so once they were filled they would travel into the stadium.  It was the perfect spring/early summer day for a day in the park.

Finland Special Delivery

I had been sending packages back and forth with Antti again... something we hadn't done in ... over 10 years now...back then we used to talk daily without fail... now it's far and few... In the dream he resent to me what I had sent to him... as it included a hair color sample swatch with multiple vivid hair colors... I think I was asking him to help me choose the next color to put in my hair.  He had knew I had been having a hard time emotionally... and his way to make me feel better was to include a necklace and a bracelet of skulls... I remember pulling it out of the box and saying.. this is so him as I slid it on my wrist.

Sometime before or after this I was pulled over to a auto garage where police had recovered a 2007 Dodge Magnum - it had hard scratches on both sides of the rear bumper and the color was between blue and lavender - it looked sun faded... they said even though it wasn't the car that went missing.. no one claimed it and we could keep it instead of having the insurance company total the car out and give us money.

Then I was woken by bloop blop sounds coming from my phone.. around 6am... Antti was messaging me through FB - still in a haze and unable to focus my eyes I pulled them up and responded "I just woke from sleep and I was dreaming about you.  How neat that you msgd me" - and then he was to first to hear the dream... he picked to stick with purple if it tickled my fancy... but suggested adding in strands of white... then I helped him find some leather pants with red stripes, talked about cheese puffs, new world take overs and the sad matter of our single lives.  

These dreams that include someone specific and then they surface in waking life at random delight me so.

Army of Race Car Rivers

Dad gave me some of his old army gear - and there was a short video of a super model wearing the gear - but it was almost like some 'anti' campaign... at one point in the fashion type shoot she lowered the front part of the camo pants she was wearing and it showed a dull tattoo and 3 symbols carved into her abdomen.. still bleeding.  She had this look of 'fuck you' on her face.  Strange I thought... I wasn't quite sure what it was supposed to mean.

I started to look through one of the green canvas bags... I was going to take it with me into a movie and had found a bag of shelled sunflower seeds and pistachios in one pouch and maps to California rivers in the other.  I overheard Dad say something about if you go on certain rivers and encounter trouble they won't even come help you.. you are on your own.  I tried to flashback to a memory of witnessing a kayaker being stalked by a group of something in the water that lead to his demise... but I couldn't recall the memory clearly.  I wanted to go down these rivers - but did not want to meet the same fate as the man I was trying to remember.   Some of the paperwork found had my name on it as if it was intended for me the whole time.

Earlier and more fuzzy - could have been a completely separate dream... I had acquired a 2001 something something former race car that went really fast... it still had racing stickers on it.

It was probably a second dream... I remember briefly waking up and being on completely the opposite side of the bed than I fell asleep on.  I remember this because it's unusual... I don't often move that much in my sleep... but last night it was asleep at edge 1... awake at edge 2.

A Window to Forgotten Audio Novelties

A group of people had been knocking on the door of my childhood home.  It had one of those bigger windows in it split into 6 small window blocks... so they can see in... I hadn't heard them knock and was on the couch watching TV.  Some movement of shadow and light caught the corner of my eye and I looked over to see the bunch peering in through the window.

Later I was with this same group walking down a retail strip... we passed a porn/toy novelty 2nd hand shop... the group was curious so we went in.. My cousin was with me and he was hesitant and nervous but followed in.  It was a hole in the wall shop filled with new trinkets and old collectables.  One of the junky trinkets was a pocket vibration thing that had multiple strings that fanned out each vibrated individually once you pushed them out of their cylinder housing... it was poorly made.  Next we opened this old dusty shelving and found old cassette tapes in there... I remember saying.. 'man I wish I had a tape deck... I'd love to hear what is on these unmarked tapes' - many of them had gotten good use.. some where damaged and the tape was loose and tangled around some of the other unwanted and forgotten plastic audio capsules... on the next shelf we found 2 old tape deck boom boxes and one was playing sounds without having had any power supply...

Tainted One of Many

I was at a dinner gathering and heard others talk about how they had been pulled in... the same exact lines... the same. the same. the same. They talked of how many others they knew during the same time.  how did he have the time?

They were shocked when I admitted I had been one...equally as shocked when they learned I had ceased all contact.   The others were struggling just as bad as I was.  I felt bad for them and then I felt good about my decision.

I had to leave there... I'm tired of the subject... it's been almost a year I should be over this... I should be over this.

I had the dogs with me and we started running .. I wanted to clear my mind... but even the act of running is tainted.  A group of boys in a van stopped to take a picture - I got upset and followed them into a drug store and confiscated their camera... they had two more.. I managed to get my hands on a second one.. and later a boy approached solo and offered the 3rd asking if I would develop all of the pictures.  I explained I do no shop at this store so how will they find me?  they were just confident they would.

Mom was with me now... we were going to go to a movie.. and then afterwards a concert and we were trying to figure out what outfits to wear.  We decided what we were wearing would suffice and headed down an aisle to leave... encountered a guy with a shopping cart looking at Halloween costumes that ended up being Danny.  I recognized him before Mom did.

We walked out and I woke up.

Ian Whispered Fragments

riding on a prison bus that stops on the side of the road at a public bathroom facility in the wilderness.
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Ian was with me at an apartment - I was going to go help the sister of the apartment owner at a nail salon and asked him if he'd be ok to stay there and if he needed anything... he was extra shy and asked via a whisper in my ear to get him the tortellini's he likes - I asked if he would just like to go to the store with me and we'd get him anything he liked...

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trouble in the shower.
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golf carts.
 

Disappointment Burns Like Acid

A large group of participants had to sign into a phone bridge in order to gain universal approval on something.  I had to step away from my computer to help track down a mediator... when I returned he had messaged me "hey you there?" - I was hesitant to respond... but I send back a simple "yeah" - he wired me into a video of him at some party as if it was going to impress me or something... it didn't.  It actually only reaffirmed and re-highlighted that he wasn't who I thought he was... he wasn't the person he sold himself to be... but I said nothing... my thoughts were kept to myself.

A bit later he started sending me pictures - the most memorable one was one of his left forearm... it had an acid burn from the wrist down to the middle of the inner forearm that was healing.  It was right down the middle so it looked like a proper suicide attempt  had it not been sutured shut and healed over with the burned skin element... and he had tattoos... he doesn't have tattoos... so not sure why that was in the visual...just more confirmation that what I knew, and what is reality are completely different.  This was followed by some nudes... I was mad at myself for still being attracted.. for still wanting him... maybe not mad.. maybe just disappointed..deeply disappointed.

When I woke up my face felt puffy as if I was crying in my sleep... I cried at the end of documentation so it's highly likely.

I'm tired... I'm so tired of this haunting and self torture.

Steak Juice Seating

Juice blend taste testing and a movie with Pat, Trent and my neighbor where they were serving steaks - since I don't eat meat I got a steak to share with Pat so he could have more.

Inside Trent sat by himself and my neighbor, Pat and I sat together - wasn't your typical movie seating - it was more like the inside of a bunker plane and the seats faced each other.