A few of us had piled into a van after work.. he was driving... there was a pit stop made and the other girl and her former work partner jumped in... there was a period of awkwardness and I didn't want to be there....and then a bit ways down the road they jumped out... and I watched them walk down the street together unaffected by their brief encounter.
Then it changed - it was just me and him in his car - and he took me to his house so he could take a leak.... I was rather surprised he drove me anywhere near his home... he pulled into the 2 car garage next to a tow truck... the garage door could only go down half way because the bed of the tow truck was too long for the garage... so the light was dim as I waited in the front seat. Another person from work tapped on the window - and asked about a 4 page report I had sitting next to me in the console. I felt lucky to have had it with me to explain why I was with him... it was for work... and nothing more. She left and a young man jumped in the backseat... it was the son of another friend from work, but in dream it was the son of the man I was with. I was again suprised that he was allowing this interaction to occur...
Later it was just him and me sitting together... and he held my hand... I squeezed his hand so tightly...until he said something along the lines that if something better were to come along I'd be dropped in a heartbeat. My grip loosened almost immediately and I pulled myself away. He tried to grab my hand again but I slapped his and stood up for myself.
I woke from that dream... though I was still in one. Trent barged into the bathroom from my childhood home while I was getting ready to take a shower... I was laying in the bathtub wearing only a white t-shirt... he stood over the tub and asked questions about work - I wanted to tell him about my dream... but I wasn't up for being called pathetic - which is how I felt/feel to still dream about this person - to still feel something for this person after so much time - but I refrained... He asked me why I looked so tired... and I said I wasn't tired, but that I had realized I was there spreading my legs exposing myself as I sat sideways in the tub...so I just had to reposition and stretch my t-shirt to cover more of me... I wasn't too bothered cause Trent has always been like the older brother I never had - but it felt inconsiderate... He mentioned he was going to go to a baseball game... there was a new stadium that was built on the corner up the way - I asked who was playing... he told me but they weren't familiar to me.. and I thought ... oh.. baseball.. he might be there... but again didn't say anything.
Then I woke up.
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