I think I overdid it on the sleep meds - which really I've only started to take again in order to supplement my dreams... I missed them, or missed not being able to wake up and recall them as clear as a memory.
Only fragments this time...
Cath had a husband and a boyfriend - some of us were confused - did they know about each other? - until she told us they did, we had to be extra cautious in our interactions - which included a late night grocery store run for ...... something.
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Pat and Alf were trying to run some scam while we were in a hotel in Vegas - I told them to just tell the truth and we could use my CC and they can just pay me back when we got home.... later it flashed to trying to pull one over on someone at work, yet it was more like a classroom setting - The teacher asked Pat where his chair was - he walked around to the other side of the room to retrieve it hidden behind a nook. When he brought it back and sat down by me I said "do you remember the time you fell out of your chair..............backwards?!?" and I exploded into uncontrollable laughter.
That's all I can remember :/
Tuesday, February 26, 2013
Monday, February 25, 2013
Smoking Video Chats
My aunt was visiting and I was waiting for her to take a shower so that I, myself could shower to get ready for work... she was taking her time and I was getting annoyed - so I decided to just take a shower in my other bathroom when I caught her smoking in my house. I erupted in anger - and screamed at her that she cannot smoke in my house, it makes me sick - she retorted and came off as deserving and that she'd do what she wanted - I called her a cunt and a bitch and tried in dream to beat her up - but I didn't have strength - I ran to my mom who was also visiting asleep in the front room - but what I saw when I approached was a black dog - one that made you unsure if it was going to be friendly or bite you - I was crying at this point - this was my house and my 1 rule of not smoking in it was being brazenly broken.
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I was at work and was getting interviewed by an intern of sorts - someone else in the company that wanted to do what I did. - there was wind that chats were being monitored including new video chats conducted. I saw clips of what they had uncovered - all forms of nudity... I overheard conversations about what people had been caught doing. I reached out to a co-worker to warn her of this - she didn't seem to believe me.. so my thought was.. ok you can just fall on your own sword then. There was a button in the chat window now that allowed you to pull historical chats of the other person - I clicked it to see what it was about - there was a convo between her and an old acquaintance of mine from HS... I just remember it reading 'I'm into this new dick' - I clicked to close the chat - but inadvertently had apparently clicked to send to some distro instead - whoops!
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I was at work and was getting interviewed by an intern of sorts - someone else in the company that wanted to do what I did. - there was wind that chats were being monitored including new video chats conducted. I saw clips of what they had uncovered - all forms of nudity... I overheard conversations about what people had been caught doing. I reached out to a co-worker to warn her of this - she didn't seem to believe me.. so my thought was.. ok you can just fall on your own sword then. There was a button in the chat window now that allowed you to pull historical chats of the other person - I clicked it to see what it was about - there was a convo between her and an old acquaintance of mine from HS... I just remember it reading 'I'm into this new dick' - I clicked to close the chat - but inadvertently had apparently clicked to send to some distro instead - whoops!
Sunday, February 24, 2013
Pathetic Hand Holding Exposures
A few of us had piled into a van after work.. he was driving... there was a pit stop made and the other girl and her former work partner jumped in... there was a period of awkwardness and I didn't want to be there....and then a bit ways down the road they jumped out... and I watched them walk down the street together unaffected by their brief encounter.
Then it changed - it was just me and him in his car - and he took me to his house so he could take a leak.... I was rather surprised he drove me anywhere near his home... he pulled into the 2 car garage next to a tow truck... the garage door could only go down half way because the bed of the tow truck was too long for the garage... so the light was dim as I waited in the front seat. Another person from work tapped on the window - and asked about a 4 page report I had sitting next to me in the console. I felt lucky to have had it with me to explain why I was with him... it was for work... and nothing more. She left and a young man jumped in the backseat... it was the son of another friend from work, but in dream it was the son of the man I was with. I was again suprised that he was allowing this interaction to occur...
Later it was just him and me sitting together... and he held my hand... I squeezed his hand so tightly...until he said something along the lines that if something better were to come along I'd be dropped in a heartbeat. My grip loosened almost immediately and I pulled myself away. He tried to grab my hand again but I slapped his and stood up for myself.
I woke from that dream... though I was still in one. Trent barged into the bathroom from my childhood home while I was getting ready to take a shower... I was laying in the bathtub wearing only a white t-shirt... he stood over the tub and asked questions about work - I wanted to tell him about my dream... but I wasn't up for being called pathetic - which is how I felt/feel to still dream about this person - to still feel something for this person after so much time - but I refrained... He asked me why I looked so tired... and I said I wasn't tired, but that I had realized I was there spreading my legs exposing myself as I sat sideways in the tub...so I just had to reposition and stretch my t-shirt to cover more of me... I wasn't too bothered cause Trent has always been like the older brother I never had - but it felt inconsiderate... He mentioned he was going to go to a baseball game... there was a new stadium that was built on the corner up the way - I asked who was playing... he told me but they weren't familiar to me.. and I thought ... oh.. baseball.. he might be there... but again didn't say anything.
Then I woke up.
Then it changed - it was just me and him in his car - and he took me to his house so he could take a leak.... I was rather surprised he drove me anywhere near his home... he pulled into the 2 car garage next to a tow truck... the garage door could only go down half way because the bed of the tow truck was too long for the garage... so the light was dim as I waited in the front seat. Another person from work tapped on the window - and asked about a 4 page report I had sitting next to me in the console. I felt lucky to have had it with me to explain why I was with him... it was for work... and nothing more. She left and a young man jumped in the backseat... it was the son of another friend from work, but in dream it was the son of the man I was with. I was again suprised that he was allowing this interaction to occur...
Later it was just him and me sitting together... and he held my hand... I squeezed his hand so tightly...until he said something along the lines that if something better were to come along I'd be dropped in a heartbeat. My grip loosened almost immediately and I pulled myself away. He tried to grab my hand again but I slapped his and stood up for myself.
I woke from that dream... though I was still in one. Trent barged into the bathroom from my childhood home while I was getting ready to take a shower... I was laying in the bathtub wearing only a white t-shirt... he stood over the tub and asked questions about work - I wanted to tell him about my dream... but I wasn't up for being called pathetic - which is how I felt/feel to still dream about this person - to still feel something for this person after so much time - but I refrained... He asked me why I looked so tired... and I said I wasn't tired, but that I had realized I was there spreading my legs exposing myself as I sat sideways in the tub...so I just had to reposition and stretch my t-shirt to cover more of me... I wasn't too bothered cause Trent has always been like the older brother I never had - but it felt inconsiderate... He mentioned he was going to go to a baseball game... there was a new stadium that was built on the corner up the way - I asked who was playing... he told me but they weren't familiar to me.. and I thought ... oh.. baseball.. he might be there... but again didn't say anything.
Then I woke up.
Friday, February 22, 2013
Future of Asahi Drinking
I went to visit my parents... and got angry with someone that came with - to the point that I told him to fuck off...Odd cause in waking life I seldom experience anger.. it's an emotion I struggle to tap...it always plays in dreams instead.
Dad wanted tomato soup... we were going to order from a Panera place but it was pricey..like $99 for 2 bowls of soup. The fucked off friend was in charge of going to get the food....and because of that.. I got none. I remember my niece being there.. but it was my others sisters baby too... they flip flopped in dream. - the house was different... the rooms were different.
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Pat took his son to Texas - he, myself and Brandon went to a bar that was inside of another establishment... Maynard was the bartender - it was like a sushi bar, but without the sushi.. he served me an Asahi... then another special drink he created, even though I had only wanted another Asahi...after I finished that he had to swap out the Asahi on tap and he served me another.. but left me a grocery bag which contained a bottle of his special brew...and then he gave me a pitcher of the Asahi for the cost of a pint. - he had good taste in music... it was all music I liked... I was especially surprised when Future of Forestry played and he sang along - in dream I struggled to remember the name of the band... 1 too many beers maybe.. I called them Forestry of Protection - mixing the band name and name of one of their tracks... then the chorus of the track playing hit... 'Did you lose yourself.... did you leave yourself behind' - I looked over at Maynard and sang it with him.. and it dawned on me... it's Future of Forestry! - the whole place was dark now - it had closed but we were allowed to stay and drink and socialize after hours.
Would have been interested to hear what other tracks played.. but the landscapers showed up and caused the dogs to bark and wake me up... damn... it was such a good and much needed sleep too.
Dad wanted tomato soup... we were going to order from a Panera place but it was pricey..like $99 for 2 bowls of soup. The fucked off friend was in charge of going to get the food....and because of that.. I got none. I remember my niece being there.. but it was my others sisters baby too... they flip flopped in dream. - the house was different... the rooms were different.
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Pat took his son to Texas - he, myself and Brandon went to a bar that was inside of another establishment... Maynard was the bartender - it was like a sushi bar, but without the sushi.. he served me an Asahi... then another special drink he created, even though I had only wanted another Asahi...after I finished that he had to swap out the Asahi on tap and he served me another.. but left me a grocery bag which contained a bottle of his special brew...and then he gave me a pitcher of the Asahi for the cost of a pint. - he had good taste in music... it was all music I liked... I was especially surprised when Future of Forestry played and he sang along - in dream I struggled to remember the name of the band... 1 too many beers maybe.. I called them Forestry of Protection - mixing the band name and name of one of their tracks... then the chorus of the track playing hit... 'Did you lose yourself.... did you leave yourself behind' - I looked over at Maynard and sang it with him.. and it dawned on me... it's Future of Forestry! - the whole place was dark now - it had closed but we were allowed to stay and drink and socialize after hours.
Would have been interested to hear what other tracks played.. but the landscapers showed up and caused the dogs to bark and wake me up... damn... it was such a good and much needed sleep too.
Sunday, February 17, 2013
Mountain of Latex Feet
Jonathan drove us up into the mountains... he had a fancy sports car and there were concerns about it getting stuck in the mud... We finally pulled into this lodge and were going to go trek out in the wilderness in search of something... but we had to wear latex gloves on our feet instead of boots - since feet aren't constructed like hands we were required to cut the thumb portion of the glove off so that it would better fit our feet - oddly, once the thumb was cut it didn't create a hole in the glove... the glove instead seemed to mend itself.
Saturday, February 16, 2013
Great White Abuductions
I dreamt of motorcycle abductions - 3 were caught.
In order to rescue my friend he had to transform into a great white shark - I was in the water under him, to help keep him afloat - next to a boat in a small docking bay- the waves kept pushing us and the boat further apart and harder together - slamming harder and harder each time - I had my fingers partially in his mouth with kept to myself worry about how close I was to the razor sharp teeth - but I was trying to shield him as much as possible from the damage of colliding with the boat - I asked my friend, who mind you, is a great white shark now, won't he have to swim in order to breathe - he said yes and we backed out into an open area of the bay - I let go of him and held onto an over-sized anchor rope at the dock - trying to keep my body as straight as possible and float on the surface. As he swam away I had to close my eyes - my fear of great white sharks is overwhelming and I had hit my limit, but part of me wanted to take advantage knowing it was my friend and get a feel for what it would really be like, (vs imagined) - to have a great white shark approach or even just swim by - so I peeked - and it was scary!
Freshy woke me up cause I overslept and she was hungry - luckily my friend in dream didn't experience hunger - I might have ended up being dinner.
In order to rescue my friend he had to transform into a great white shark - I was in the water under him, to help keep him afloat - next to a boat in a small docking bay- the waves kept pushing us and the boat further apart and harder together - slamming harder and harder each time - I had my fingers partially in his mouth with kept to myself worry about how close I was to the razor sharp teeth - but I was trying to shield him as much as possible from the damage of colliding with the boat - I asked my friend, who mind you, is a great white shark now, won't he have to swim in order to breathe - he said yes and we backed out into an open area of the bay - I let go of him and held onto an over-sized anchor rope at the dock - trying to keep my body as straight as possible and float on the surface. As he swam away I had to close my eyes - my fear of great white sharks is overwhelming and I had hit my limit, but part of me wanted to take advantage knowing it was my friend and get a feel for what it would really be like, (vs imagined) - to have a great white shark approach or even just swim by - so I peeked - and it was scary!
Freshy woke me up cause I overslept and she was hungry - luckily my friend in dream didn't experience hunger - I might have ended up being dinner.
Friday, February 15, 2013
Tentacle Booty Call
2nd round of tentacles from the sky - we could see them in the far off distance approaching with clouds of highly active lightning. The outer layer was a dark maroon and the inner layers a dull pink - stocky at the base and spear like at the tips as they whipped around with the sole purpose to take lives. The male father figure and his eldest son came in from the backyard - I say father figure cause at first he was my father.. and later turned into someone else... as the tentacles approached I suddenly remembered that we might have survived round 1 cause we had boarded up all of the windows - the man sent his son to the garage to find the proper sizes of plywood - he was in the garage and thought he had found the right one but as he pulled it out it was in an L shape and would not fit the window - the father walked out to assist just as the boy was being taken - we were too late. The man was next.
It was hard for me to go back and face the mother figure and her youngest son as they sat in the middle of the living room. Had I remembered this earlier things might have turned out differently.
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I went along with one of my friends for a booty call... I went to shower there and couldn't figure out how to turn the shower off - it's as if the lever was around the corner in another portion of the room - I slipped in the shower and hit my head - but managed to pull myself up and get the water to stop running... I went to the sink to wash my hands and found it odd that the 3 sink stalls all had drains that were carpeted - I stood there staring at it for quite some time thinking.. maybe one of the kids just stuffed something down the drain... cause each drain was slightly different. I dismissed it and went to return to my friend and his lady of the night - but as I walked out of the bathroom and looked down the hall... I saw that she had basically tied her 3 kids down to the couch to watch TV so as they would not disturb them... WTF?!?! - I didn't bother to knock when I walked into their room... but they were only watching a movie. Nothing had happened and nothing was going to happen. I remember thinking... why does he go to all this trouble when he could just sleep with me... I woke up before I got to protest about the absurd and completely unacceptable treatment of the kids.
It was hard for me to go back and face the mother figure and her youngest son as they sat in the middle of the living room. Had I remembered this earlier things might have turned out differently.
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I went along with one of my friends for a booty call... I went to shower there and couldn't figure out how to turn the shower off - it's as if the lever was around the corner in another portion of the room - I slipped in the shower and hit my head - but managed to pull myself up and get the water to stop running... I went to the sink to wash my hands and found it odd that the 3 sink stalls all had drains that were carpeted - I stood there staring at it for quite some time thinking.. maybe one of the kids just stuffed something down the drain... cause each drain was slightly different. I dismissed it and went to return to my friend and his lady of the night - but as I walked out of the bathroom and looked down the hall... I saw that she had basically tied her 3 kids down to the couch to watch TV so as they would not disturb them... WTF?!?! - I didn't bother to knock when I walked into their room... but they were only watching a movie. Nothing had happened and nothing was going to happen. I remember thinking... why does he go to all this trouble when he could just sleep with me... I woke up before I got to protest about the absurd and completely unacceptable treatment of the kids.
Thursday, February 14, 2013
Silent Control
I dreamt about Ian... for the first time in a long time it seems.
I was completely unaware of the suicide in the dream... instead it was that we were split but still remained in somewhat contact... he was with someone else... but we slept together twice in dream... he made it clear - though, not in words... because there was no speaking.. it was just that silent understanding that... that's all it was going to be... and that it was open to happen again if he chose... he was in control...
I'm not sure how I feel now... in prior instances I'd have a complete breakdown when I woke up having to face reality over again... oh nevermind.. here it comes...
I was completely unaware of the suicide in the dream... instead it was that we were split but still remained in somewhat contact... he was with someone else... but we slept together twice in dream... he made it clear - though, not in words... because there was no speaking.. it was just that silent understanding that... that's all it was going to be... and that it was open to happen again if he chose... he was in control...
I'm not sure how I feel now... in prior instances I'd have a complete breakdown when I woke up having to face reality over again... oh nevermind.. here it comes...
Sunday, February 10, 2013
Snow Salvaged Rapids
Someone had emptied the abandoned swimming pool and put whatever was salvaged from the bottom on the side of the house. I found a kitten there... the smallest kitten I've ever known to exist... she could latch on to my finger with her claws and stand there - I could have fit 5 of her in the palm of my hand. Also saw large and small frogs... and a duck-billed platypus - there was actually 4 of them, one adult and 3 babies.. I took them in and had one of my sisters set up a pail of water - it was a shallow pail and after putting the adult in, it transformed from it's natural furry brown color to bright red with accents of orange and yellow - the babies did the same but stayed red and lacked the additional adult accents.
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Had to go to Denver for work and got to invite my family to come along - it was nice to have the whole family in a new place together... and all of us together. Although there was a stress about a certain someone being there that I wanted to avoid... it didn't spoil the family time. It was snowing and smoke puffed from the tops of the chimneys of the scattered cabins in the snowy mountains.
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Went theme tubing with Pat and his typical Tri-B crew - though I seemed to be the only one that dressed up in costume... I remember pulling my phone out to snap a picture of all of us and thought to myself.. I should have brought a water proof bag to keep this in... I was on the tail end of the and my view was as if you were looking out of the back window of a car as it drove forward... I didn't bother to pay attention to where we were going... and sometimes we hit rapids and went really fast.
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Had to go to Denver for work and got to invite my family to come along - it was nice to have the whole family in a new place together... and all of us together. Although there was a stress about a certain someone being there that I wanted to avoid... it didn't spoil the family time. It was snowing and smoke puffed from the tops of the chimneys of the scattered cabins in the snowy mountains.
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Went theme tubing with Pat and his typical Tri-B crew - though I seemed to be the only one that dressed up in costume... I remember pulling my phone out to snap a picture of all of us and thought to myself.. I should have brought a water proof bag to keep this in... I was on the tail end of the and my view was as if you were looking out of the back window of a car as it drove forward... I didn't bother to pay attention to where we were going... and sometimes we hit rapids and went really fast.
Wednesday, February 6, 2013
Dude Mimic
I dreamt that I could get my 6 month old nephew to mimic things I say. I had him say "dude" a lot and his face was so expressive. For my Mom I had him say "grandma I love you"... Thank you cough syrup w/codeine for bringing back my vivid dreams..I'm so sad we will part as soon as I am well.
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