Emotional Dreams of Betrayal and Escape

Back at the old house in Riverbank...the person I allowed myself to be closest, whom has somewhat re-entered my life... lived next door...I later found out that he was the father of my sisters baby - and she did everything she could to rub it in my face...though he chose to go to avoid and ignore route...it was a rage dream... I remember breaking a wine glass and throwing part of it over the fence in a fit... and considered cutting myself again with the remaining shards...I sat there staring at my already scarred arm from past abuses contemplating what the outcome would be if I were to pick up that habit again.  I was so hurt.  I was so angry.  I felt so alone.  Later I was trying to escape someone in a neurology ward of a hospital...  There is just too many things going on for me emotionally right now, and I lack a solid support system.