Warped and Rearranged

More dreams within dreams...Fall asleep craving the love you've always wanted, just out of reach, mostly due to your own inability to believe anyone could care that much about you....dream of a broken family - a highly exaggerated and very warped version of your own.  A drunk father with borderline tendencies to have inappropriate relations with his daughter - a daughter that considered just to feel a sliver of love.  So fucked up that she thinks that's what love is.  Selfish sisters that you feel you have to rearrange yourself to be part of the clique...and where was mom... where was mom?  I woke to find my backyard in an upheaval...Phase II dug up hidden control panels in both the front and the back, the neighbor noticeably rearranged a piece of his yard - was I supposed to say something to him about it? - this project is going to take much longer than expected...maybe it's best I leave it alone.