I've always been.. since I was a kid.. superstitious about writing down a dream when it involves death. It's silly.. but I want record of this dream.
I was at work.. though the office was not like any office I had worked in before.. it was some hybrid of the office in Bellevue and ... I'm not even sure what. Mom called to inform me that my sister Cath passed away. It was shocking and devastating... I, in dream, felt as though I had an earlier premonition about losing someone close to me. I fell to the floor and started sobbing. I had this feeling like death is all around me, and I'm being purposely punished cause of something I did, and my lack of control about it overwhelmed me.
She had 2 kids and a 3rd on the way. What was going to happen now?
Either later that day or sometime during the night I got a phone call. The voice on the phone said it was Cath. I wasn't fully convinced as it didn't sound like her on the phone.. her voice sounded different. She tried to explain that she faked her death.. and why, if she was lying, did the death certificate say she weighed 97lbs less than normal considering she was pregnant. I was stunned. Completely shocked. This isn't like Cath.. this is nothing she would do.. ever. To leave her kids. And apparently abort the unborn one.. for what? - She ran away with another guy.. I insisted that she send me a picture.. some kind of proof cause I didn't believe it.. I asked if I could see her.. but they were across the country in FL of all places.
The dream now turned into a strange POV of this guy she ran away with... he was a tall muscular black guy with long well maintained dreadlocks.... I could see through his eyes momentarily as he was on a morning jog.. the intersection of Cleveland and California streets...(And if you want to talk about creepy.. I just googled that intersection to see if it existed and it does - In FL even - WTF???: California Rd & W Cleveland Ln, Lehigh Acres, Florida)
There was this weird sensation like he knew I was watching... and he didn't want to give up clues about where they were. Then later, a 3rd person POV, where he took a swim in a water way and some young kid jumped on his back for the ride.
How was I going to tell Mom and Jenn? It was so unfair for them to hurt thinking she was gone when she is alive but trying to escape her life. In dream I wasn't even mad about that.. I was too focused on the fact that she was alive vs. dead..
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